Myth, the man, the legend, the celebrity *claps buttcheecks in confusion*

 I never really gave much thought why I spend hours watching some B class actor on a livestream all night long. And not get much crazier lol. But there's another with a serious erotomania who contacted me today because she didn't like his girlfriend and she's the only one who really loves this man. A crush she calls it. Guess it's some attachment fixation thingy. I'm sure it wouldn't work on just anyone. Thinking that guy welcomes it. It's so serious I don't spend just time. It's like an addiction really to throw gifts at him whatever app they may be using.
I sent two emails to his email in 2023? I sent him a few snaps on Snapchat in 2018 and later like every 60 weeks or whatever. He did this app for a bit where you could spend money to send them messages and be in his little circle. You could even have a one on one videochat with them. I did get one of those. Tried to show him my hamster since I was hamstersitting my hampster at the time. It was pretty sad, yeah.
Like, I'm not... there's no... I feel... what the profanity and tears I even do feel late at night. Making it worse. But, I have never. A proud asexual I am. If he did flirt, I'd be oblivious. The areas in my brain light up when he says stuff like "I love you" when he's ending the stream, or something of that sort. Hardcore character in his life for sure... weird and funny. Me??! Keeping it reel coz im mentally eel xD

DM's slid. Purely business stuffs.
I made a fan account to him on instagram. I'm talking to this other fan of his whose pretty handy when it comes to staying up to date with any new posts as she's always commenting on his pages. Social media... I don't have the same tenacity to always like, comment, follow, view everything.

Me: Are you sure you don’t have erotomania of celeb worship syndrome. I’m not saying your fixated or had one-way obsessive parasocial disorder, or were cyberstalking or whatever attachment. I mean I miss him too but let the guy f***k with his gf a bit 🥲 👍🙈🤷‍♀️🤦‍♀️🙄😊

She: *misunderstood by me and denies being crazy*

That's it then. No worries whatsoever.